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Ayurnamat

Deviation Actions

Published: Oct 7, 2013

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Literature Text

_{I’ve kept this picture
I think, more out of habit, than of need,
Because it represents a time
When you were actually there,
When we wore our parents over-sized wellies
And I looked up to you with a smile,
When you beat a boy from the park
For reasons I can’t even remember
But it definitely had something to do with him
Hurting me,
When I lied for you in the headmasters office,
When you lied for me after I put you in hospital.

I could complain now
That you wouldn’t lie for me any more
Or even talk to me without duress
I could keep having conflict filled dreams
Glaring at every update of your life
That has no need of mine now.

Or I could replace that picture
With the one who came to me at 3am
Because I couldn’t stop the tears,
Or the one who spent weeks feeding me
Because I couldn’t manage to feed myself,
The one who let me rant about you
Hour after hour, for not caring,
The one who held me through my fears
Without even needing to know
What they were for.

I could complain
But I think I’ll just update.}